Soul Wrestler: Reconciling the Irreconcilable

Soul Wrestler: Reconciling the Irreconcilable

Vayishlach – Genesis 32:4-36:43

Nov 29 to Dec 5, 2020 | 19 Kislev 5781

Photograph by  Glenn Sackett

Soul Wrestler: Reconciling the Irreconcilable

The nature of life is to put us off the right tone and rhythm. Every moment is that struggle. From the first moment one gets up in the morning one has to meet with this struggle, even for a saint or sage.

– Hazrat Inayat Khan

A brief recap of the parsha Vayishlach, “And he sent” –

As Yaakov nears his twin’s land, his scouts report that Esav is headed toward him with 400 men. “Exceedingly afraid and distressed”, Yaakov divides his camp into two for their safety. He leads them across the Yabbok river, while he stays by himself, not yet having crossed over – allegorically significant. In the night he tenaciously wrestles with what is most likely the soul of Esav:

And Yaakov was left alone –
And a man wrestled with him until the coming up of dawn.

Then [the man] said:
Let me go,
for dawn has come up!
But [Yaakov] said:
I will not let you go
unless you bless me.

Then he said:
Not as Yaakov/Heal-Sneak shall your name be henceforth uttered,
but rather as Yisrael/G’d-Fighter,
for you have fought with G’d and men
and have prevailed.

– Excerpts of Gen 32:25-29

Having prevailed over the soul of Esav, the next morning when the brothers meet, they embrace. There is a truce, although not a merging of camps. They go their separate ways. Yaakov, the rightful holder of both blessings, remains the progenitor of the Israelites and Judaea; Esav is the father of the Edomites.

Holder of Polarities

Who is Yaakov? He is the love child of Rivka and Yitzhak. In the Tree of Life, he embodies TefiretBeauty, which balances Hesed and Gevurah. The chart below illustrates several polarities that harmonize in Yaakov:

For the world as we know it to exist, there must be both qualities of Expansion (light, love) and Contraction (vessel, discernment). The balance of these expresses Beauty – Tiferet, reconciling the irreconcilables in the heart center.

Before Yaakov wrestles in the night, as Esav approaches with 400 men, he uses this power of polarity to protect his family. He divides them into two camps. This is one of many examples where Yaakov faces life head on and overcomes challenges with discernment, humility and grace.

Reflection: In what ways do the qualities of love and discernment find their balance in you? By combining these two polar opposites, you are harmonizing with your surroundings. It is through harmony that you can keep rhythm in life, by mastering your breath — your “Nafs” — keeping your equanimity despite circumstances.

Why Did Yaakov Receive Both Blessings?

Tohu is the chaos of the void, the world of scant vessels that shatter rather than hold light. In Sufism, Nafs is the breath, manifesting as our egoic nature. Here the reference is to the “Nafs-e-Ammara”, breath driven by self-centered willfulness. Through practice, Nafs can be refined.

Tohu + Nafs = Esav
Chaos + Ego = Willfulness

Had Esav succeeded in refining his Nafs, had he been more disciplined and inclined to consider others, our history might have been different. As the firstborn, he was destined to marry the elder sister, Lea. Then Yaakov and Esav would have been our forefathers. Because of his recklessness, the blessing of the first born – material dominion – is stolen from him to protect the balance of creation. Consequently, he marries Canaanite women and becomes the forefather of the nation of Edom.

Serve in Teshuva or as Tzadik?

Another pair of polarities which Yaakov embodies is to serve in Teshuva and as a Tzadik. By nature, Yaakov is the Tzadik – a saintly man. He does what is just and correct, the holy servant of G’d. And yet, as the holder of both blessings, material and covenant, he must also toil in the service of Teshuva.

This plays out in his relations with Lavan, Lea and Esav. In the service of Teshuva, Yaakov toils in Harran, multiplying Lavan’s wealth — as well as his own — through skilled shepherding and market activities.

To serve in Teshuva is to repair some torn aspect of the world that confronts you. You needn’t go looking for opportunities to serve in Teshuva. In this way, you are bringing spirituality into the world to heal the broken shards of Tohu — the primordial chaos. Like the Sage who acts in the world, Teshuva allow for the healing process to work in the world.

Why does Yaakov to take on both wives and both roles, Teshuva and Tzadik?

Yaakov’s nature is the Tzadik. By subduing Esav in the subtle realms, he is ready to take on his new name and role of Yisrael the Tzadik – the righteous one who can mend the shards without toiling in the world. He attains inner perfection as a human being, attuned to prayer, contemplation and direct knowledge of G’d. Underscoring this, he receives his new name twice – once from the soul with whom he wrestled, and again confirmed directly by G’d.

Let’s look at Teshuva and the Tzadik to understand their expression in the world. What light to they shine on our lives today?

Two Paths of Service

Returning to the two triangles of the Magen David, on the downward pointing triangle, we see the polarity of Hesed (Loving-Kindness) and Gevurah (Severity, Discernmnet) which combine in balanced harmony at the point of Tiferet (Beauty).

On the upward pointing triangle, we see Yaakov balancing the qualities of the Saint and the Sage, serving as Tzadik and in Teshuva.

Reflection: Where are you in the practice of serving in Teshuva and as Tzadik? Most of us serve with Teshuva: toiling to do good works to make the outer world a better place. However, we also can develop the inner nature of the Tzadik through prayer and contemplation – to harmonize in the inner planes at the level of Soul.

 

Kabbalah Sufism Sound Code

Spirit Before Matter

Thus, one of the primary messages of this parsha is the capacity of the human being to heal the world on the inner level. This is best done first, and then circumstances in the everyday world will play out more harmoniously.

And [Yaakov] bowed low to the ground seven times, until he had come close to him, to his brother.
Esav ran to meet him,
he embraced him, flung himself upon his neck, and kissed him.
And they wept.

– Gen 31:3-4

Rhythm of Life

This week’s practices will take us deeper into this inner journey of service in Teshuva and as the Tzadik. We will seek to build our capacity to create harmony in daily life — to continue our awakening to the internal worlds, and ultimately, to bring together the outer and inner realms, in the marriage of heaven and earth. 

Through Breath, Sound and Light, we can be in tune with the Infinite and the rhythms of this life. This beautiful, chaotic, ever changing, all-pervading Life.

Watercolor by Nurullah Anya Godwin

WEEKLY PRACTICES: Reconciling the Irreconcilable

With the Soul Manifestation Process, we listen for divine guidance before setting our intention toward fulfillment.  The door opens through breath, light and sound.

Suggestion: Do one practice a day, or do all 6 consecutively. Remember… have your Journal nearby to jot down any insights that may arise.

Audio Recording – Coming Soon

 

Kabbalah Sufism Sound Code

Breath:

This week I’d like to share with you the Sufi practice of Qasab. This breathing practice balances the breath on the right and left sides, harmonizing and quieting the mind, centering us in the heart. The Tree of Life reflects these polarities: Chesed (Loving-kindness) and Gevurah (Severity); Netzach (Will) and Hod (Receptivity).

With your right hand, use your thumb to close the right nostril. You will use your ring finger to close your left nostril. Touch your middle finger to the 3rd Eye for its balancing effect. Begin by closing your right nostril with your thumb and breathe in through the left to the count of 4 heartbeats. (If you can’t feel your heartbeat, imagine that you are breathing in to the count of 4 heartbeats). Close both nostrils, hold your breath, and count 4 heartbeats. Now release the thumb and exhale through the right nostril for 4 heartbeats. Practice this breathing pattern 3 times.

Now, do the reverse: Again with the right hand, close your left nostril with your ringer finger and breathe in through the right to the count of 4 heartbeats. Close both nostrils and count 4 heartbeats. Now release the ring finger and exhale through the left nostril for 4 heartbeats. Repeat this breathing pattern 3 times.

Finally, breathe through both nostrils: With the right hand in the same position, keeping your middle finger on the third eye, release both nostrils and inhale to the count of 4 heartbeats. Close both nostrils and count 4 heartbeats. Now release both fingers and exhale through the both nostrils for 4 heartbeats. Repeat 3 times.

Rest your hand in your lap or by your side if you’re standing. Feel the balancing effects of this breath. Do you feel more peaceful and centered?

Contemplation:

Following your breath, mentally recite these contemplations drawn from the words of this week’s parsha and from the Sufi master Hazrat Inayat Khan:

 

Yaakov sent many gifts ahead to Esav with the intention of nullifying his brother’s anger:

I will wipe the anger from his face
With the gift that goes ahead of my face

– Gen 32:21

Think of a difficult situation you face. How might you internally prepare the field and seed the ground, so that a difficult meeting goes harmoniously? First consider your intention. The gift of positive expectancy with prayer and visualization can work to pave the way toward a positive outcome for all involved.

 

What is most needed in life is to be in rhythm with the finite conditions of life and to be in tune with the Infinite source of our existence.

Inhale: In tune with the Infinite
Exhale: In rhythm with the finite

 

Light:

With eyes closed, breathe in and out gently through the nose. Balance your inhale with your exhale. Keep your body still. Breathe gently in and out through the nose. In this refined state, focus on the right side of your chest. Visualize white light filling the right side of your chest. Breathe in white light, exhale white light for 5 breaths.

Now focus on your physical heart. Visualize red light filling the left side of your chest. Breathe in red light, exhale red light for 5 breaths.

Now focus on the center of your chest. Visualize green light filling the center of your chest. Breathe in green light, exhale green light for 5 breaths.

When you are ready, open your eyes and breathe fully, deeply. What is your experience of this balancing practice?

 

Sound:

Similar to mantra, to practice Wazifa is to repeat a Name (quality) of G’d. The meaning of the Name, which is encoded in the sound vibration, will be revealed to you through repetition and focus. This week’s Sufi practice with sound vibration will focus on developing our capacity for healing wisdom and discernment, Al-Hakim and Al-Hakam.

We recite Ya Hakim (yaa ḥa-KEEM) to invoke the universal manifestation of healing wisdom, bringing all experience into balance and harmony. Combined with Ya Hakam (yaa ḤA-kam) – the one who discerns and who makes wise decisions. With this pair, we begin to see from the eye of the heart by means of the light of G’d.

 

Inhale: Ya Hakam

Exhale: Ya Hakim

As you rhythmically inhale and exhale, softly repeat each Name out loud, 33 times. Afterward, feel the effects of the sound vibration on your being.

Zikr:

Meaning “remembrance”, Zikr is the repetition of a sacred phrase with the intention of returning to the essence of Unity. Continuing from last week, we will repeat the central Jewish prayer known as the Sh’ma.

In Hebrew:

שְׁמַע יִשְׂרָאֵל יְהוָה אֱלֹהֵינוּ יְהוָה אֶחָֽד

Shema Yisrael YHWH Eloheinu YHWH Echad

The Sh’ma can be translated as: “Hear, O Israel: the LORD our God, the LORD is one”. LORD is the unpronounceable four letter word יְהוָה – YHWH, the Name of G’d that can’t be named. Instead, we’ll use the word “Adonai“, meaning Lord, or “HaShem“, meaning The Name.

When practicing Zikr, it’s best to use the original language in which the prayer was revealed. As you inhale and exhale, softly repeat out loud, 33 times. Afterward, feel the effects of the vibration on your being.

 

Inhale: Shema Yisrael Adonai Eloheinu
Exhale: Adonai Echad

Inhale: Shema Yisrael HaShem Eloheinu
Exhale: HaShem Echad

Nature:

This week, be aware of polarities in your life. A good way to being is to observe polarities in nature: night and day, for instance. Pay particular attention to the transitions: sunrise and sunset. Feel the rhythmic, balanced interchange of all life. We are in autumn now, the transition from summer to winter. How is the darkness of the longer nights affecting you?

Consider your life. Where are you in transition? In what ways do you daily balance and harmonize with your inner and outer landscapes?

For a direct experience of Sufi wisdom and insight, please listen to the podcast with Pir Shabda Kahn. He speaks on balance in life and the need to face problems head-on, internalizing the mantra, “This is what is happening right now.”

Shabbat Shalom!

After 6 days of practice, when Shabbat arrives, observe how this week’s practices shape your Shabbat experience. Be sure to check in Sunday morning for next week’s parsha.

You are invited to comment on how the contemplations and practices for this week have shaped your experience of daily life… any big Ah-ha’s? Please share your thoughts and feelings below.

 

חַיִּים
L’Hayyim…. To Life!

Perfection: The Dance Between Destiny and Choice

Perfection: The Dance Between Destiny and Choice

Perfection: The Dance Between Destiny and Choice

by Debra Sofia with Kimba Arem

The Perfection in Life

Full-time spiritual seeker Kimba Arem is an international performer and recording artist, sound engineer, molecular biologist, classically trained musician, and subtle energy therapist. In this podcast Kimba speaks of her near death experience that changed the trajectory of her life. In that moment she “saw the perfection of everything that has ever happened on every level until this time”.

As Above, So Below

We explore Kimba’s views on the perennial question about what rules mankind  – determinism or free-will. Her answer? Paradoxically, it’s both. Her near death experienced revealed to her how life is PERFECT but not PREDETERMINED. Everything fits into a pattern, but we can choose how we react. From the viewpoint of the cosmos, even life’s most difficult experiences are perfect.

Kimba views music not as “entertainment” but as a healing modality. It is her life’s purpose to serve as a minister, messenger and emissary between the worlds to bring the higher realms into the earth plane through music. Indigenous people’s instruments like Tibetan bowls and the didjeridu remind us to live in harmony with the earth.

A molecular biologist, she undergirds this awareness with scientific research on how sound vibrations affect brainwaves. We explore the phenomena of entrainment, and how it is key to healing. And the healing nature of the monochord with its ability to express harmonics.

Sound and Music as Medicine

If you are feeling stressed – or just curious – we invite you to listen and relax to the vibrational sounds of her crystal didjeridu.

Publications:

To learn more about Kimba, visit GAEARTH.com

 

Traveler: Bringing Spirit into Physicality

Traveler: Bringing Spirit into Physicality

Vayetzei – Genesis 28:10-32:3

Nov 22 to 28, 2020 | 12 Kislev 5781

Photograph by Glenn Sackett

The Traveler: Bringing Spirit into Physicality

The first word of this parsha and it’s name, Vayetzei, means “And he left.” Telling the story of Yaakov’s travel and sojourn to Harran, this parsha explores the struggle between chaos and order. It reveals the outcome of Yaakov having received Yitzhak’s two blessings as material master and Avrahamic lineage holder.

In Bereshit, Torah tells of the separation of the spiritual and physical worlds. In the Garden, after Adam and Eve ate from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil, the spiritual and physical worlds were divided. It is through the actions of Yaakov that the spiritual again enters the physical.

Reflection: Before we delve into the telling of the saga of Yaakov and Esav in this parsha, pause for a moment to take stock of how the physical and spiritual worlds intertwine within you. How do you live your life? What is primary? What choices do you make? In what ways does the spiritual world enter into your being? How does it direct your pursuit and use of the physical world?

Light and Vessels

In Kabbalah, the foundational duality of the created world is Light and Vessels. Everything is either expansive light or the containment of light in vessels. Even the container itself is made of light.

Think of a cup made of ice, filled with water. This is the world according to Kabbalah. All is Light – sometimes light flows and expands (Chesed). Sometimes light contains and constrains (Gevurah). Avraham embodies Chesed; Yitzakh Gevurah; and the two opposing forces become united in Yaakov as Tiferet – Beauty.

The physical world that we see all around us is a world of containment, with scant or hidden light. The vessels are able to contain the light. This is the world of Tikun – repairing. And what does Tikun repair?

Kabbalah Sufism Sound Code

Let’s return for a moment to the first two lines of Torah:

“At the beginning of G’d creating the heavens and the earth,
when the earth was wild and waste…”

 – Gen 1:1-2

“When the earth was wild and waste” describes the chaos that existed before G’d brought order to heaven and earth. The Hebrew for “wild and waste” is tohu va-vohu. This primordial world is named Tohu. It is a world of much light and scant vessels. You may have heard of this as the “shattering of the vessels”.

The opposite of Tohu, a world of scant light and many vessels is our world of Tikun. It is the orderly world of duality and embodiment: sun and moon, night and day, land and sea, and all the plants and animals we see today – an orderliness and embodiment that Tohu could not sustain.

The many vessels of this world, the world of creation, of Tikun, can contain the light, thus repairing the shattered world of Tohu. The more we strengthen our vessels with mitzvot, the more light this material world can contain.

Realization vs. Transcendence

The worlds of Tohu (Realization) and Tikun (Transcendence) are neither good nor bad; it’s the application that matters. Tohu is the world of passion, ideas and creative energy. Consider Mozart and Mussolini. It’s the application that matters. Similarly, the orderliness of Tikun can be used to heal or to harm. The vessel of technology is a good example, which heals or harms depending on how it is applied.

In the Yaakov / Esav saga, Esav represents Tohu and Yaakov embodies Tikun. Hairy Esav was a “wild ass of a man who loved the hunt and the field.” Because Esav is undisciplined and willful, the Tohu of Esav gets expressed in ways that are destructive. In contrast, mild mannered, smooth skinned Yaakov spends his time in the tents – in study. Yaakov had the discipline to study, to sublimate the immediate needs of the self and act with wisdom and harmony. This is Tikun.

Reflection: And you? How much order have you brought to your wild self? A person is considered to be mature when they live responsibly and consider the impact of their actions on others. First, think of a recent example where you acted kindly. And now an example where your instinct for self over others took hold.

And yet, wildness – passion, creativity, innovation – is not a negative. Where does your light shine through? As adults, we must build our vessels through repetition, study and practice in order to express our innate Tohu in positive ways. Of what is your vessel comprised? What actions do you take regularly to strenthen your innate abilities and passions?

Repairing the World

In the previous parsha, we witness Yaakov receiving both the material and spiritual blessings from his father. Because Yaakov receives the material blessing, he is able to uplift the material world, to repair it with mitzot. Without the blessing of the first born (material wealth and mastery over his brother) the world of Torah would have remained spiritual only. It would not have had the power to enter the physical world.

Established in the Garden as a consequence of human beings awakening to Good and Bad, the separation of the physical and the spiritual would have remained. Had Esav received the blessing of the first born, the physical would have maintained primacy over the spiritual, creating chaos, continually shattering the vessels meant to contain light.

To Harran and Back

With that foundation, let’s review the story of Yaakov and Esav. When Esav realized his brother has stolen not only his birthright, but also his father’s blessing of material dominion, Rivka knows that Yaakov’s life is in danger. Before sending him to the land of Harran to choose a wife, Yitzhak gives Yaakov the blessing as holder of the covenant to carry on the legacy of Avraham.

From this we can see that Yitzhak always intended this blessing for the spiritual, G’d awakened Yaakov. Yaakov leaves for Harran, where he meets and falls in love with Rachel, the daughter of his father’s brother, Lavan.

Lavan is a man of trickery and deceit. He presents Lea instead Rachel for the marriage ceremony. And 10 times he changes Yaakov’s wages. And yet Yaakov prevails. Examples abound of Yaakov’s ability to “raise the sparks” — to repair and uplift. For example, Yaakov protected and multiplied Lavan’s herd:

Lavan said to him:
Pray, if I have found favor in your eyes…
I have become wealthy,
And YHWY has blessed me on account of you.

– Gen 30:27-28

And Yaakov’s response:

You yourself know
How well I have served you,
And how it has gone with your livestock in my charge.
For you had but few before me,
And they have since burst out into a multitude.
Thus has YHWH blessed you at my every step!

– Gen 30:29-30

After 20 years of hard work and attentiveness, on G’d command Yaakov gathers all that is rightfully his and leaves Lavan’s land to return home. When Lavan pursues him, Yaakov speaks of his fruitful service to Lavan:

It is twenty years now that I have been under you:
Your ewes and your she-goats have never miscarried,
The rams from your flock I never have eaten,
None torn-by-beasts have I ever brought you…

– Gen 31:38

Stones Mark a New Reality

Other examples of Yaakov’s ability to bring the spiritual into the physical involve stones. Nearing Harran, when he saw the beautiful shepherdess Rachel, Yaakov alone rolled the stone from the well so her camels could drink, a feat that usually required the strength of several men. This has the visual of opening oneself to the deep well of love, and life-supporting water.

Two other events involve stones as a physical marker of spirit. On the night when Yaakov dreams of the ladder he put his head on a stone pillow. With messengers going up and down the ladder, he received the promise of the covenant of Avraham through his line. Awestruck, he marks the spot with his stone pillow as a standing-pillar, vowing to make this place a house of G’d:

… he took the stone that he had set at his head

and set it up as a standing-pillar

and poured oil on tip of it.

– Gen 28:18

This became the site of the First and Second Temples. The ladder itself symbolizes the connection of the physical and spiritual worlds.

After serving his uncle for 20 years, Yaakov leaves with his family. Lavan pursues him, filled with ill intent. G’d again intervenes through a dream, warning Lavan not to harm Yaakov, his family and his flock. Yaakov prevails against this foe, marking with stones the line of truce between Lavan the trickster and Yaakov – holder of the covenant of Avraham:

Yaakov took a stone and erected it as a standing-pillar.

– Gen 31:45

Having diverted trouble with Lavan, more dangers await Yaakov and his family. At the end of Vayetzei, to return home he must pass through Esav’s land. Just before he reaches the border, he again encounters messengers of G’d, a promising portent for what is to come:

As Yaakov went on his way,
messagers of G’d encountered him.

– Gen 32:2

Chaos and Order

For this week’s practices, we will seek to bring into the spiritual world of divine Light into our lives. To continue our progression from the external to the internal, and ultimately, to bring the two together, in the marriage of heaven and earth. This is how we can be in tune with the Infinite and the rhythm of life. This beautiful, chaotic, ever changing life. This life right now, as we seek to apply our personal will to a deeper calling, and by so doing, allow for divine grace to guide our life.

WEEKLY PRACTICES: Spirit into Physicality

With the Soul Manifestation Process, we listen for divine guidance before setting our intention toward fulfillment.  The door opens through breath, light and sound.

Suggestion: Do one practice a day, or do all 6 consecutively. Remember… have your Journal nearby to jot down any insights that may arise.

Audio Recording – Coming Soon

Breath:

Sitting comfortably with an upright spine, breathe in and out through your nose. Inhale deeply. Exhale completely, eliminating all of the spent air in your lungs. Inhale deeply and focus on your abdomen. Exhale completely. Inhale and focus on your chest, then exhale completely. Once more, inhale and focus on your crown, and then exhale completely.

Breathing comfortably, bring to mind a sorrow that you hold. It could be a loss or a frustration… something that holds sadness for you. Breath it in, as if you are breathing in gray smoke. Breath in this sorrow. Right now, it is yours to feel. On the exhale, breath out pure, clear light. You are transmuting this sorrow into light.

After a while, consider others you know who have felt this or similar sorrows. Inhale this sorrow as the part of the human experience. Inhale gray smoke, exhale clear light. When you no longer feel the weight of this sorrow, when it has been spun into pure light, inhale pure light, exhale pure light. Sit with this peace, breathing in and out pure light. When you are ready, open your eyes and move slowly to awaken to normal reality.

Write about this experience in your journal. You are using the discipline of Tikun to repair the vessels broken by the chaotic power of Tohu. G’d bless you.

Contemplation:

Following your breath, mentally recite these contemplations drawn from the words of this week’s parsha and from the Sufi master Hazrat Inayat Khan:

 

From Yaakov’s dream so described: “the ladder set upon the earth, it’s top reaching the heavens and messengers of G’d going up and down on it.”

This dream clearly shows his purpose and destiny is to reconnect earth to heaven, integrating the spiritual and the physical worlds.

Yaakov awoke from his sleep and said:
YHVH is in this place
And I, I did not know it!

– Gen 28:16

Inhale: YHVH is in this place
Exhale: (silence)

Entering the Gate of Heaven:

He was awestruck and said:
How awe-inspiring is this place!
This is none other than a house of G’d,
And that is the gate of heaven!

– Gen 28:17

Exhale: This is a house of G’d,
Inhale: The gate of heaven

Tohu is the world of thought. Tikun uses the vessel of words to contain the thought. Practice these words of Hazrat Inayat Khan on the breath:

Exhale: I AM in everything
Inhale: Everything is in me

Light:

With eyes closed, breathe in and out through the nose. Let your breath be gentle and refined. Imagine that you are standing in an open field at night. The night is perfectly dark. The moon and stars are not visible in this black landscape. Breath in and out this darkness. 

Begin to feel the pregnancy of the dark. Although you can’t see it, sense the manifested world all round you. Breath peacefully in this knowledge.

Now a sliver of light appears on the horzon. The earth has been turning toward the sun all the while. Dawn is breaking. Allow the morning light to fill the sky. When the sun peaks over the horzon, open your eyes. See with new awareness. What does your heart feel? What does the widsom of your heart say to you in this moment?

Sound:

Similar to mantra, to practice Wazifa is to repeat a Name (quality) of G’d. The meaning of the Name, which is encoded in the sound vibration, will be revealed to you through repetition and focus. This week’s Sufi practice with sound vibration will focus on bringing the spiritual world into the physical world around you: Ya Nur and Ya Munawwir. 

As a starting point, we can say that Ya Nur (yaa NOOR) is the essence of light, luminosity itself. Ya Munawwir (yaa mu-NOW-wir) is a form of the same root and means the one who illuminates.

Inhale: Ya Nur

Exhale: Ya Munawwir

As you rhythmically inhale and exhale, softly repeat each Name out loud, 33 times. Afterward, feel the effects of the sound vibration on your being.

Zikr:

Meaning “remembrance”, Zikr is the repetition of a sacred phrase with the intention of returning to the essence of Unity. Continuing from last week, we will repeat the central Jewish prayer known as the Sh’ma.

In Hebrew:

שְׁמַע יִשְׂרָאֵל יְהוָה אֱלֹהֵינוּ יְהוָה אֶחָֽד

Shema Yisrael YHWH Eloheinu YHWH Echad

The Sh’ma can be translated as: “Hear, O Israel: the LORD our God, the LORD is one”. LORD is the unpronounceable four letter word יְהוָה – YHWH, the Name of G’d that can’t be named. Instead, we’ll use the word “Adonai“, meaning Lord, or “HaShem“, meaning The Name.

When practicing Zikr, it’s best to use the original language in which the prayer was revealed. As you inhale and exhale, softly repeat out loud, 33 times. Afterward, feel the effects of the vibration on your being.

 

Inhale: Shema Yisrael Adonai Eloheinu
Exhale: Adonai Echad

Inhale: Shema Yisrael HaShem Eloheinu
Exhale: HaShem Echad

Nature:

Excellent! Now it’s time to return to the every day world, refreshed, renewed and reconnected. During the week pay attention to the play of light. How does light reveal color, shape and form in this ever-changing world?

Shabbat Shalom!

After 6 days of practice, when Shabbat arrives, observe how this week’s practices shape your Shabbat experience. Be sure to check in Sunday morning for next week’s parsha.

You are invited to comment on how the contemplations and practices for this week have shaped your experience of daily life… any big Ah-ha’s? Please share your thoughts and feelings below.

 

חַיִּים
L’Hayyim…. To Life!

The Root That Holds You Up

The Root That Holds You Up

The Root That Holds You Up

by Debra Sofia with Archimandrite Christodoulos Papadeas

Remember, it is not you who holds up the root, but the root that holds you up.

– From Saint Paul, Romans 11:18

We all come from somewhere: no one is an island. With beautiful humility, our guest’s favorite quote reminds us to thank God for all those who came before us. Gently, it leads us away from our common ego-centricity.

Today we speak with Archimandrite Christodoulos Papadeas, a Greek Orthodox Priest who lives in Denver. Graduating from the Holy Cross Greek Orthodox School of Theology, Father Chris took his monastic vows in 1989 at the Archangel Michael Monastery in Rhodes Greece.

Five years later, he was ordained and made a Spiritual Father and Archimandrite – an honorific given to a monastic and leader of a flock. After living in solitude at the Island of Rhodes monastery and being sent on foreign mission trips to India, Albania and Canada, he was assigned to return home to Denver. There he began an urban hermitage — the Brotherhood of Saint George — which offers prayer, community and the warmth of God.

The photo above shows the entrance to The Saint Prophet Elias Chapel in Hot Sulphur Springs, Colorado, while the interior image shows the Saint George Hermitage in Denver.

In this podcast, we discuss the Greek Orthodox views toward those of the Jewish faith and on marriage while serving as a priest. Father Chris discusses the “light shining bright” in a world that continually suffers from darkness. Encouraging us as adults to outgrow the natural self-centeredness of childhood, he shows us how this virtue can unfold in our lives in a balanced way.

Like me, when you hear Father Chris speak, you will be touched by his sincerity and genuine love of all that God has made in heaven and earth. Please enjoy this conversation and receive the blessings of this humble servant of God.

Generations: The Free Will to Live One’s Destiny

Generations: The Free Will to Live One’s Destiny

Toldot – Genesis 25:19-28:9

Nov 15 to 21, 2020 | 5 Kislev 5781

Photograph by Basir Ted Yasi

Generations: Destiny and Free Will

Throughout Toldot, we witness two levels of reality: human and divine. To delve into this parsha, we must seek to understand human events in the context of divine will. In this parsha we are confronted with the play between fate and free will, destiny and choice — the same paradox each of us faces in our own lives.

The dynamic figure of the generation following Avraham and Sara is not Yitzhak (Isaac), but Rivka (Rebecca). It is she to whom G’d reveals the master plan for the future generations. And it is Rivka who devises the scheme to see that G’d’s will is carried out. Of the generations to follow, it is Yaakov (Heal-Holder) about whom many stories are told. And with the new name of Israel (G’d Fighter), it is his name that is given to the Jewish people.

Even in the womb, Yaakov and Esav wrestled, causing Rivka much discomfort. Inquiring as to the reason, YHWY reveals the master plan: 

YHWH said to her:

Two nations are in your body,

two tribes from your belly shall be divided:

tribe shall be mightier than tribe,

elder shall be servant to younger!

 – Gen 25:23

Of course we all know the deception that happens. Rivka plots with Yaakov to trick Yitzhak into believing that he is giving the blessing of the first born (material inheritance) to Esav. Ruminating on this, if Yitzhak trusted his hearing, he would not have been deceived. Not only was Yaakov unable to disguise his voice, he deferred to G’d in a way that would have been uncharacteristic for Esav:

Yitzhak said to his son:

How did you find it [hunted game] so hastily, my son?

He said: Indeed, YHWH your G’d made it happen for me.

– Gen 27:20

Blind Yitzhak trusted his senses of touch and smell, rather than his hearing. This reveals something of Yitzhak’s character, a man who admired the hunt and the field. However, in Torah G’d reveals Presence primarily through sound. And G-d’s voice (vibration / sound) is the first emanation in Bereshit: “G’d said, ‘Let there be light’.”  

Qualities of the Soul

Let’s return to the two triangles of the Magen David. This time, on the downward pointing triangle, visualize the polarity of Hesed (Loving-Kindness) and Gevurah (Severity, Judgement) on the two upper corners, which combine in balanced harmony to the point of Tiferet (Beauty).

Correspondingly, Avraham embodies Hesed, while Yitzach is Gevurah. Gentle, G’d-centered Yaakov expresses Beauty. These are three of seven Soul Qualities from the Tree of Life actively present in all creation.

Reflection: Where do these qualities appear in your own life? Are you overflowing with loving-kindness? Are you the rule-keeper? Or do you balance both Soul Qualities in an expression of Beauty? Or better yet, WHEN do you see yourself acting out of one of these creative impluses?

Kabbalah Sufism Sound Code

Yaakov the Lineage Holder

May G’d Shaddai bless you,

may he make you bear fruit and make you many,

so that you become a host of peoples.

– Gen 28:3

Before Yaakov fled from his brother’s wrath, his father gave him the instructions to choose a wife from the daughters of his mother’s brother Laban, who lived far away in Aram. This blessing acknowledges Yaakov as the rightful lineage holder of the Covenant.

From Kabbalah, we learn that Rivka correctly perceived that being the lineage holder also requires Yaakov to be the inheritor of the rights of the firstborn (material wealth), not Esav as Yitzhak had intended. If we fail to put G’d first, before the material, then we will fall short of our destiny as Bestowers. For a more detailed discussion of the role of Ego and Bestowal, please visit the Kabbalah Blog.

Reflection: Where are YOU in the balance of your focus between the inner world and the material world? How do you live your life today? Which comes first? When we give material concerns primacy over the inner life, this can be called idolatry. Pause and reflect. Where in you is there room for growth?

Yaakov as Bestower

Esav was born first, just as the desire for self gratification, Ego, awakens before our ability matures to consider the other. Yaakov embodies the kindness and consideration of his mother. This is why Esav was the first born, and why the birthright needed to pass to Yaakov. This is the way we as human beings mature through life.

Refletion: What will it take for humanity to develop the maturity to consider the whole impact of our actions? When we collectively awaken to the other as oneself, the world’s problems can be solved.

Mirror of the Past

Another fascinating aspect of this parsha which is relevant to our lives is the repetition of the storyline. Going back to the Garden of Eden, we have eaten from the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Bad. When Kayne kills Havel, we witness the first murder. Later, human beings stray so far from how we were intended to live, that G’d was sorry for having created us. Thus, the Flood.

And so on through to this parsha, with the Esav / Yaakov dynamic. Another reocurring theme is G’ds preference for the shephard, the gentle soul seeking connection with G’d (Havel, Yaakov) over the man of the fields (Kayne, Esav).

Reflection: So I ask myself, in what ways does my present mirror my past? What themes repeat in my life, time and time again? And in your life?

“To realize one’s destiny is a person’s only real obligation and when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”

― Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

Listening for Guidance

For this week’s practices, we will seek to open the door to divine guidance. To continue our progression from the external to the internal, and ultimately, to bring the two together, in the marriage of heaven and earth. This is how we can be in tune with the Infinite and the rhythm of life. This beautiful, chaotic, ever changing life. This life right now, as we seek to apply our personal will to a deeper calling, and by so doing, allow for divine grace to guide our life.

WEEKLY PRACTICES: Destiny and Free Will

The secret of inner guidance: On whatever the desire of the soul is fixed, to that the way is cleared and all hindrances are swept aside. If you unswervingly desire anything or to become anything, that you will become. … Whatever the self desires, that is its destiny.

– Hazrat Inayat Khan

With the Soul Manifestation Process, we listen for divine guidance before setting our intention toward fulfillment.  The door opens through breath, light and sound.

Suggestion: Do one practice a day, or do all 6 consecutively. Remember… have your Journal nearby to jot down any insights that may arise.

Audio Recording – Coming Soon

Breath:

Sitting comfortably with an upright spine, breathe in and out through your nose. Inhale deeply. Exhale completely, eliminating all of the spent air in your lungs. Inhale deeply and focus on your abdomen. Exhale completely. Inhale and focus on your chest, then exhale completely. Once more, inhale and focus on your crown, and then exhale completely.

Breathing comfortably, imagine pure white Light entering through your forehead. On the next breath, imagine this clear light filling your head. On the next breath, filling your upper body. And then your torso to your legs and toes, and down your arms to your fingertips. And now, breathe in the clear light of guidance and exhale light all around you. As you continue to breath comfortably, feel this light of guidance as it enters through your forehead, fills your body, and radiates outward in all directions.

With eyes closed and mouth relaxed and open, breathe in and out through your mouth.  This is the purification breath of Air. Sense the spaciousness in your body. As you exhale, imagine all of your molecules being scattered far and wide. As you inhale, recollect yourself through your Heart center in a more loving, harmonious, beautiful formation. Your inhale is the same length as your exhale, rhythmic and gentle. You are spreading yourself throughout the cosmos as you exhale, reforming yourself in Divine Light as you inhale.

Contemplation:

Following your breath, mentally recite these contemplations drawn from the words of this week’s parsha and from the Sufi master Hazrat Inayat Khan:

 

“May G’d Shaddai bless you.” (Gen 28:3)

Inhale: May G’d Shaddai bless me
Exhale: (silence)

Note: The meaning of Shaddai can be given as: “Within My G‑dliness is sufficiency for every created being.” 

Practice this contemplation of Hazrat Inayat Khan on the breath: 

“I have known good and evil, sin and virtue, right and wrong; I have judged and been judged; I have passed through birth and death, joy and sorrow, heaven and hell; And in the end I realized that I AM in everything and everything is in me.”

Exhale: I AM in everything
Inhale: Everything is in me

Light:

With eyes closed, breathe in and out through the nose. Let your breath be gentle and refined. Allow your breath to become shallow. Keep your body still. Breathe gently in and out through the nose. This is the subtle breath of ether. In this refined state, imagine Light entering through the top of your head, your crown center. Breathe in Light through your crown, exhale Light through the palm of your hands. Allow yourself to receive any shift in awareness that happens. No effort; simply receive in stillness. When you are ready, open your eyes and breathe fully, deeply. Feel a sense of gratitude for the experience of stillness filled with Light.

Sound:

Similar to mantra, to practice Wazifa is to repeat a Name (quality) of G’d. The meaning of the Name, which is encoded in the sound vibration, will be revealed to you through repetition and focus. This week’s Sufi practice with sound vibration will focus on receiving inner guidance: Ya Rashid and Ya Hadi. 

As a starting point, we can say that Ya Hadi (yaa haa-DEE) calls on the source of all guidance for the whole of humanity. Ya Rashid (yaa ra-SHEED) brings an established and clear consciousness that balances inner experience and worldly life.

Inhale: Ya Rashid

Exhale: Ya Hadi

As you rhythmically inhale and exhale, softly repeat each Name out loud, 33 times. Afterward, feel the effects of the sound vibration on your being.

Zikr:

Meaning “remembrance”, Zikr is the repetition of a sacred phrase with the intention of returning to the essence of Unity. Continuing from last week, we will repeat the central Jewish prayer known as the Sh’ma.

In Hebrew:

שְׁמַע יִשְׂרָאֵל יְהוָה אֱלֹהֵינוּ יְהוָה אֶחָֽד

Shema Yisrael YHWH Eloheinu YHWH Echad

The Sh’ma can be translated as: “Hear, O Israel: the LORD our God, the LORD is one”. LORD is the unpronounceable four letter word יְהוָה – YHWH, the Name of G’d that can’t be named. Instead, we’ll use the word “Adonai“, meaning Lord, or “HaShem“, meaning The Name.

When practicing Zikr, it’s best to use the original language in which the prayer was revealed. As you inhale and exhale, softly repeat out loud, 33 times. Afterward, feel the effects of the vibration on your being.

 

Inhale: Shema Yisrael Adonai Eloheinu
Exhale: Adonai Echad

Inhale: Shema Yisrael HaShem Eloheinu
Exhale: HaShem Echad

Nature:

Excellent! Now it’s time to return to the every day world, refreshed, renewed and reconnected.

When you wake up in the morning, recall this week’s practice. Take a moment each day to quietly inhale ya Rashid, exhale, ya Hadi. What does this practice awaken in you?

Shabbat Shalom!

After 6 days of practice, when Shabbat arrives, observe how this week’s practices shape your Shabbat experience. Be sure to check in Sunday morning for next week’s parsha.

You are invited to comment on how the contemplations and practices for this week have shaped your experience of daily life… any big Ah-ha’s? Please share your thoughts and feelings below.

 

חַיִּים
L’Hayyim…. To Life!